Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad; whether from great personal success, or just an all-night drive, we are the sole survivors of a world no one else has ever seen.
- John le Carre
- John le Carre
Another week, another post. As always, my video is rendering in the background as I type this. I need to plan this a little better so perhaps I can write the post a little earlier in the day when I’m not as tired but for now this will have to do.
This past week has definitely been an improvement from the previous one. The back pain I had before has now subsided, It’s still there but my movements are not as restricted plus I’m not in nearly as much pain and discomfort.
On to the check list.
What I didn’t get to do:
What I got to do:
For the upcoming week, I’d like to add sufficient sleep to the mix. I don’t think I get enough of it. Not even during the weekend. I’ve always had an issue with not getting ample sleep. For the longest time I used to struggle with insomnia. Nowadays, the issue is that I wake up too easily in the middle of the night, therefore my quality of sleep suffers.
My video is still saving so I’ll go ahead and post this up.
Stay safe everyone.
What a week this has been. Not just because of what’s going on with the world but just in general.
The week started off with an old back injury that decided it was a good time to remind me that it’s still there. Needless to say, my entire workweek at home consisted of having a heating pad and an extra pillow for my computer chair, plenty of breaks so I can stretch, hot showers, and ibuprofen. The week ended with us taking our dog to the vet to get some diagnostics done (so waiting for that is going to be fun, plus we have to return in a couple of days for additional tests).
So what did I NOT get done?
No exercise (due to back injury acting up).
Stuff I got done.
Journaled once (I was mistaken; on my audio I recorded, I thought I had written two passages).
Wrote a blog post
A tiny bit of leisure time (I try not to miss The Walking Dead when it’s on).
I still eat pretty healthy (limited caffeine, low-sodium, fruits & veggies although I can use more veggies I think.) I believe I am snacking more than usual though.
It looks like my video is done saving/rendering so it’s a good time to conclude this.
Being present. Meditation.
What doesn’t work:
Worrying about tomorrow. Worrying about things you can’t control. Not getting enough sleep. Not allowing yourself to do things you enjoy just because.
Ending this on a positive vibe
Grateful for everything I have. Grateful for being a tough motherfucker who pushes even harder when things get a bit wacky. I can't help it. I don't know how to quit.
My strategy for the forthcoming week:
Tackle it like a boss.
I'm going to post this then load up my game on Steam. I need some down time.
If you happen to be reading this, I hope you are doing alright.
I’m typing this blog entry while my vid is saving exporting/saving in the background. Another late entry but hey, at least it’s getting done right? Currently 9pm in my little corner of the world. It’s been a busy week as the organization i work for has transitioned everyone to working remotely as many have done this past week due to the pandemic.
2020 has already been such a doozy and we’re only 3 months in.
Let’s get right to it, shall we?
What I got done:
I was able to draw once
Leisure time = I was able to catch my TWD and catch up on a couple of recorded show; I was also able to read more this week
I wrote a blog post last Saturday
I have 2 journal entries this past week
I ate pretty healthy overall according to my own dietary needs
What I didn't get done: 0
I didn’t realize this while I was recording my audio earlier since I just wanted to get the audio done while I could…
but I actually did pretty well with my weekly goals this week. While the frequency for some were not where I prefer, I still managed to get everything done.
That extra time I have from not commuting really helps. While I am able to do this, I plan on figuring out how I can continue this momentum when I do return to having to commute to the office.
Some days it feels like maybe if I pushed more, I’ll get it all done. But at the same time, it’s a thin line between pushing myself in a healthy way versus pushing myself to the point of fatigue and exhaustion.
This week, all things considered, I did alright.
Take care of yourselves and each other.
I’m typing this before I even edit the video. Well, there’s not much to edit since I have no footage of drawing or gaming. It’s been one of those weeks really. My day job is very deadline-driven and I’ve had a couple of intense days this week. I’d come home mentally exhausted. Plus home life is busy as always.
The main thing I’m really not pleased about this past week is not being able to draw or meditate. While I did manage to work out midweek, I still need all the components to work out for me to feel ok. I’ve become used to meditating regularly that missing it just feels wrong at this point. Not being able to draw at all this week just adds on to that. I did get to study for a professional certification I’m trying to prepare for, for a couple of nights. Had I not done that, I would’ve been able to draw. However, this cert is a top priority so i have to shift any available time towards it,
Anyway, here are this past week’s results:
What I did:
Journal entry 1X
A little bit of leisure time (watch TWD)
Wrote a blog post
Ate semi-healthy (I had a little more caffeine than usual and not as much veggies as I’d like)
What I didn’t get to do at all:
This coming week, I will make an effort to go to bed a little earlier so i can get up earlier than usual to allow for meditation time without encroaching upon my time to rest.
Perhaps a little more sleep might help me with sustaining my energy level as well.
Take care of yourselves. Until next week.
This’ll be another quickie post. I’m typing this while the edited vid for YT is in the process of saving in the background. It’s been a very busy week both in terms of work and home staff but overall, I can’t complain.
So for the past week I would say that overall I made some progress in a couple of tasks that have been a problem area. I resolved to improve upon this by changing the milestone to better reflect my current work schedule.
In a nutshell, I dialed it down just a bit. For meditation and exercise weekly goals, the strategy to get the ball rolling again was to make it impossible to fail by making the minimum milestone very achievable. In doing so, I can rebuild the momentum I had before.
On the flip side, I did not draw or write. These are activities I do during the evenings on weekdays. After I get home from work and take care of some home stuff, I can shift my attention to these creative pursuits. However, this past week, I encountered a couple of busy days at work which can mentally drain me to the point of physical exhaustion and a couple of nights where my commute home took longer than usual due to delays in mass transit.
So here are the results:
What I did:
Allowed myself for leisure time
Wrote a blog post
What I didn’t get to do:
Draw (work on my grid series)
Write in my journal
Tomorrow when I am more lucid I’ll try to figure out what I can do to “create” more time for all of these activities.
For now, I need to upload the vid on YT, post this on the blog, and call it a day. I need some rest.
Have an amazing week ahead.
Not gonna lie...I'm probably going to hit publish on this blog and head straight to bed. I'm a bit tired and quite grumpy. The pattern for this past week seems to be the following: anytime I try to get something done for myself, something happens to slow me down or keep me from actually doing the task. (Note to self: I still have to place all my YT vids with its respective blog post.)
What I got done:
Draw twice during the weekday.
Leisure time (which I treasure since I'm always doing stuff for other people): some gaming, a little bit of TV (The Walking Dead just started again), and some reading
Eat healthy (although my veggie intake the past week seems to be lower than usual, which I didn't even realize)
What I missed:
Some unexpected challenges during the beginning of the week which I believe partially contributed to the outcome above:
I was feeling really fatigued all day on Monday
I had some really bad backache and abdominal discomfort on Tuesday
More sleep and rest in general, especially during the weekend
What doesn't work:
Strategy for next week:
Reduce the frequency for exercise and mediation so I can realistically reach those milestones. In doing so, I think that I will regain the momentum that was somewhat lost from my new work schedule. We will see the results next week.
I remain optimistic despite the hurdles this week. There are a lot of external circumstances that will be out of my hands. However, how I respond and react to those unexpected events and situations will determine whether or not I will attain the goals I've set up for myself both short-term and long-term.
Have a great week and be well.
Another evening post due to another busy Saturday. I’m typing this as this week’s video is rendering in the background. I’m going to need to examine my workflow and identify areas of improvement. I need to find ways to do things even more efficiently in order to manage my time better. I think I do alright as it is but it's starting to feel like I am scrambling a bit by end of week. I start off strong at the beginning of the week then lose some traction by the end of it.
At this pace, I can see myself burning out even when it doesn’t feel like it at the moment. That's the main thing I'm trying to prevent.
This past week the exercise portion of my weekly goal is lacking once again. I am not counting the walking I do as part of my daily commute. Perhaps I can count that towards my cardio portion of the workout. The only thing I need to do is the resistance type of exercise. I have to sync my fitness device to see how much I have actually walked this past week.
Ideally, I prefer to get my video uploads and blog post done by noon on Saturday, not trying to finish it up later that evening as I am right now.
Also for this week’s vid, I could not find the clip I had of my gameplay of the game Distrust. I know I recorded it, it must’ve not saved successfully. Also, I am hoping this week’s vid isn’t ruined since I just got an error notification so I am trying to export it again.
Here’s a summation of this past week’s goals:
What works: Preparing ahead of time
What doesn’t work: Feeling like there’s too much to take care of at home; varied commute time depending on how unreliable the train is that night.
This week's vid upload took way too long due to some technical difficulties. I am very annoyed right now but hey, at least it got done and with a little over a half an hour left before midnight.
Here's to a a smoother week up ahead.