Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad; whether from great personal success, or just an all-night drive, we are the sole survivors of a world no one else has ever seen.
- John le Carre
- John le Carre
What a week this has been. Not just because of what’s going on with the world but just in general.
The week started off with an old back injury that decided it was a good time to remind me that it’s still there. Needless to say, my entire workweek at home consisted of having a heating pad and an extra pillow for my computer chair, plenty of breaks so I can stretch, hot showers, and ibuprofen. The week ended with us taking our dog to the vet to get some diagnostics done (so waiting for that is going to be fun, plus we have to return in a couple of days for additional tests).
So what did I NOT get done?
No exercise (due to back injury acting up).
Stuff I got done.
Journaled once (I was mistaken; on my audio I recorded, I thought I had written two passages).
Wrote a blog post
A tiny bit of leisure time (I try not to miss The Walking Dead when it’s on).
I still eat pretty healthy (limited caffeine, low-sodium, fruits & veggies although I can use more veggies I think.) I believe I am snacking more than usual though.
It looks like my video is done saving/rendering so it’s a good time to conclude this.
Being present. Meditation.
What doesn’t work:
Worrying about tomorrow. Worrying about things you can’t control. Not getting enough sleep. Not allowing yourself to do things you enjoy just because.
Ending this on a positive vibe
Grateful for everything I have. Grateful for being a tough motherfucker who pushes even harder when things get a bit wacky. I can't help it. I don't know how to quit.
My strategy for the forthcoming week:
Tackle it like a boss.
I'm going to post this then load up my game on Steam. I need some down time.
If you happen to be reading this, I hope you are doing alright.